Day 3ish

Weight: 222.4

Where I am at?

A whole lot of nowhere fast. after hitting that wall, hitting it hard and working my butt off...my butt did not come off. I plateaued and got discouraged. and am still there. Despite going paleo for a month (i got down to 222ish. and the excess water came off) J and I decided to keep going, tracking calories, eating whole foods, and I have yet to get below 221.5. I eat a minimum of 1300 calories and a maximum of 1500 despite MyFitnessPal saying ive got a good 1780 to lose a lb a week. I ammore active, bike rides, walks, runs weekly, lugging 2 children out and about, so on and so forth. Im not in the gym 5x a week anymore busting my tail. That was much easier when I didnt have classes and work. But still, I am active, eating right.

Here are some current pictures. Im really bloated today, for a reason unbeknownst to me. I weighed in this am at 226 which means im retaining water somethign FIERCE. so I have been nursing some lemon water all day, and eating raw (with some tuna in my salad). 

I am still in a 16-18 pants. and I am feeling discouraged. But I figure, even if im NOT losing weight, i cant put SHIT in my body, because my body, at any weight, deserves the right fuel. does this mean im excited? no. im pissed. Im trying really hard, but its not melting off like it should. Ive fgot 7.5 months until our hawaii wedding, a date I had hoped to be wearing a bikini made for a size 8. but no. not happening. 

I shall continue with this, doing what i can, easting the right foods, tracking calories.

Ill update when I have something worth saying on the matter.

More soon

When I'm not on the go!  222 is my current weight with 237 days left until Hawaii!

Still trucking.

Silk haven't LOST weight,  but I'm trying to keep going.  Even though my average weight is 232 (higher than my 226 low the week I started this.) I am persevering.  I'm eating well, gluten free, little to no processed foods,  no red meat.  I'm trying.  Sometimes I stumble.  But I'm trying.  I'm working on my arms. I want nice shoulders with the dramatic drop and slope down the arm instead of arms that bow out.  I'm working on core like I never have before.  And I do cardio everyday. I try to run,  but be respectful of this shin splint. I'm truly trying and also trying to not get discouraged.  This is just life now.  And I have to teach narae that life is better and liner t when youre healthy.  Wish me luck!  And forgive the unflattering photos,  I just need s frame of reference for this time for when I'm done!

21 days in.

After a friends reaction to seeing me (not positive) and my pants not fitting, I weighed myself and it was bad. 

I gained 6lbsish.

I'm just defeated.

discouraged again?

so i tried on yet another pair of jeans today, and was very upset when the button wouldnt even reach its holey counterpart.

is my body betraying me? Who knows.

for the first time im really doing it right, giving myself great workouts and really good nutrition and im still having trouble.

I also had some stomach pain today, had just worked out my core real good 2 days prior and I have a gnarly shin splint that might be causing some water retention. So we shall see.

i felt defeated today but instead i sucked it up, went to the gym, and burned about 1200 calories and did some strength training.

My feet are ACHING!

Discouraged?

Im not weighing in. (not for lack of temptation!)
Im not measuring (not for lack of trying; i just cant find my tape!)
Im trying to see just fitness goals and how my fitness is evolving.

In 15 working out days (of the last 17 days) Ive been able to bring my mile time from around a 15 minute mile (probably just prior laziness) to a 12:17 mile.
I can run a little, jog a little, and finish 3.1 miles (a 5k for all you who are wondering) in under 45 minutes.

So why am i discouraged?

While trying to avoid seeing something negative and just focus on how my body is behaving, I have accidently found a bump. I needed to run anerrand today and i reached for the nearest pair of jeans. Now its been warm here, so I havent worn jeans in about 30 days. I have worn tights or dresses or skirts or shorts, no jeans. so I expected them to fit the same, maybe even a little looser, right?

WRONG.

they felt tight with my very own very familiar muffin top.

i immediately felt discouraged. they were so uncomfortable I had to take them off and find another outfit to wearand its been on my mind all day. My fingers feel swollen and my legs too. They feel stretched and uncomfortable.

I KNOW i need to keep at it.
thanks for my Accountability Partner Adam (even long distance friends can help weight loss!) he sent me this: http://blog.shareitfitness.com/2013/how-long-to-see-results-and-weight-loss/
and I feel a bit better. so much so that even though I was ANGRY at Gym. I stillwent and did some good cardio before coming home. I didnt do even a full 60 today, but I figure, i came, i went, i saw, i mini conquered, and i will defeat this defeat.

its only been 17 days.

theres plenty of time to see the new body emerge. :)