209ish

So this is pretty deceiving.  I look s bit thinner than I Actually am. But my motivation is renewed!  153 days left until I rock a suit for my best friends wedding.  I'm a groomsmaid! I'm stay at about 209 these days and want to lose add much as I can by June 15th. So I created a visual,  a widget on my phone that counts down the days.  153 days to be on the ball!  It helps to have an end in sight.  A Day that I call the end,  even though it won't be. It's just a tool to keep me true to the goal. I hope I stick with it!

i havent left youuuu

ive just been ridiculously busy with twooooo babiesss!

Narae is nearly 11 months now and J is 4! 

and here i am...at 211 (208 was my loest but ive been staying within 3ish lbs). 

i plateaued for a bit, not only with my weight but with my staying true to the weight loss process. i allowed myself to focus on maintaining for awhile, but im back in action! 

ive got 6 months and 10 days until im in a wedding wearing a suit! and i wanna be the hottest damn thing in that lineup :) 

so here it goes...back on the healthy eating wagon! im going to be posting a series of photos of snacks and foods that are 150 calories or under...to give anyone passing through some perspective on what calories look like...and hopefully help choose better ones! 

hope all is well and healthy

meeee!

links to pictures!

the day i birthed julian - 281 lbs

ten days after birthing maya  288 lbs

and some updates!

April 2012

226 lbs

215ish

August purple shirt

 212 - wearing skinny jeans and boots! WHAT?!

November 212 more realistic :)

November - 212 (slightly decieving picture lol)

December Face :)

I have NEGLECTED YOU! eeeeek!

well to be honest i have also neglected myself.
i got in such a rut that i worked hard in november and didnt lose anyting THE WHOLE MONTH. then suddenly, in early december, 4 lbs DROPPED off of my persons rather suddenly, and welcomely. however i got complacent as one does on super long projectsand it came back. im now holding steady at 212 again.
a few things that have changed? i stopped eating fantastic because nothing was happening...well after those 4 lbs came off i didnt get exactly remotivated. so getting back on will help.
also its winter. in oregon. something i LOVE but means that its hard to exercise. and im nto just making excuses. its too cold to exercise WITH the kids, and by the time my husband is off work and i could go..its dark and im a weenie.
my poor bike hasnt been ridden and i want to! i need to find something.

Biggest Loser starts back up in Jan! with Jillian and Bob and Dolvett i bet ill shed a few lbs.

im a "groomslady" in one of my best friend Matt's Wedding on june 15th. im setting a goal. here and now. December 19th, 2012 that in 6 months at his wedding i WILL be 180 lbs or better.

he deserves beautiful wedding photos and as a girl im already going to stand out in them, i should be at my best shape! its very important!

i have some support and help in this.
i have 4 challenges and support going right now.
Emily - started when i was 232 goal to get to 50 lbs lost. whoever wins gets free drinks!
Amanda - whoever gets to 180 first gets drinks! (im not an alcoholic i sweari just didnt want it to be a challenge for dinner or anything like that)
Kim - my sister and i are at a race to lose 13 lbs (that would put me around 199) by my girls first birthday.
Melissa - we are both on a mission to support each other as we seek out the coveted goal weight and body of that of a 175 lber. we can do it! you know, if we put our backs into it. :)

i know what i want and i deserve it.
yesterday i was eating HORRIBLY, like it was my "before" life.
graham crackers with peanut butter and marshmellows, pb and banana sammiches. (I LOVE PEANUTBUTTER).
just not good stuff.

also...here is some TMI. enjoy :)

i recently invested ina  hopeful tea, (3 ballerina tea) to aid in my digestion. you may have heard of it as a dieters aid, but i assure you i am not going that route, i simply want to have a bit of a cleanse. my system needs that shock, it needs that assistance to get back on track. it has been sluggish and slow and uncomfortable.
unfortunately, despite rave reviews about its crazy "side effect" of making a person cramp horribly and relieve themselves within about 6 hours...that did NOT happen to me. there was no drastic need to run to the restroom where i would stay for an hour...nay, this did NOT happen. i tried a second day...nothing. sigh.
one day maybe when i up the fruits and vegetables again.

im doing amazing at water drinking! i get in quite a bit now. that makes me happy. i dont drink or need Mio or any flavored water beverage.

im just doing well, and why fuckit up because i got complacent? i KNOW that if i keep working, the body will come. look how far ive come already! time to get back on the horse so i can not be a cow anymore. im worth it! :)

hmmm update?

wellllll lets see. things have been a bit hectic here some days, calm the others. 

im 212 now, 76 lbs down! but i havent budged in weeks and today being thanksgiving im SURE didnt help. thats okay. 

a friend recently sized down (yay for her and also i wont lie im jealous of her 20 lbs smaller than me frame!) and she gave me all of her size 16 and XL clothes...they all fit fantastically...matter o fact, i successfully wore a flattering pair of size 16 skinny jeans...ive never worn a pair before and i was nervous, but i dig em! 

i havent been able to exercise...correction, havent found MUCH time or much motivation with it being so rainy, i cant ride my bike much, and i have the littles with me all day so my options are limited to WALKING. which isnt bad but i want more than that! 

im sure ill find a balance and maybe get motivated to play my biggest loser game or something. 

actually thats going to help! biggest loser is coming back on and i always seem to lose weight watching every week. :) 

i have been doing full time school, "work" which is really an unpaid volunteer internship thingy, and mothering and somedays im ehausted and some days i have no time for me things, thats okay im enjoying things! 

i chopped off my hair, and im amazed at how much thinner it makes me look. i for sure thought the opposite. but no no, it shows off the work ive done in my shoulders and it shows off the work ive done to my jawline, MUCH more flattering than my hair before which left my face looking chubby and my shoulders more broad! and j loves it...cant go wrong there :) 

i havent been tracking, and i can tell that has played a role in my plateau, also it seems like i plateau every 10 or so lbs, so i know its just the process. for sure though i was NOT responsible foodwise this thanksgiving...and im expecting a 1 lb return as well as a couple lbs of water weight from the sodium and just lots of food to digest. 

im learning a LOT in my nutrition class, the hardest class ever mind you, and im trying to incorporate it. we'll see how it goes :) 

im excited for the next 7 months. my best friend gets married in June, and I will be there obviously, and likely wearing a svelte pants suit, so i have no choice but to look amazing! :)

anyhow, thats whats been up here. i promise you few readers this, that i WILL get better at tracking and get some exercise in and im going to get my goal...complacency has no place in health :)

Gettin there! Down 74 from delivery!

Komen race for the cure - first family 5k!