227.8

i dont know how or why. but somewhere along the line i gained some back. its hard and i know i am better than that. but here is where i sit currently. 47 lbs from where i want to be and i dont like it. 

its hard because i have been eating somewhat decent  int erms of calories, but 90% of my calories are healthy calories and i wor out 2-3x a week on the bike or jogging. so now i know i have to kick it up pretty hard, which is intimidating. but ill get it. i am DETERMINED to give anyone who comes ascross this blog a happy ending. i may not have readers at the moment but someone will find it one day and dammit, they are getting the ending every good story has!

til later, friends.

Ehhhh two steps forward one step back.  I'll get there eventually. 

Can't give up even when I am not succeeding as fast as id hoped. gotta teach this girl that you can't give up and health is more than weight. :)

5 mile bike ride and a 1.75 mile walk with my sweet girl on my back. :)

209 ish again.  Shit.

209ish.

I see the skinny girl in there somewhere.  I miss her!

has been a little bit!

today might daughter turned one.
and i was reminded of why im doing this.
for her. so she has a mother she can look up to
who can teach her how to love her body.
so what did i do?
had some cake and pie, had some not so great foods.
and then talked to J and told him "its time to get back on the wagon."
we've allowed this lax lifestyle for too long. and its time to change.

and seriously, ive got to wear a suit in 4 months, and an exensive gown next year.

time to do it.


man i hope i dont let my daughter down.

209ish

So this is pretty deceiving.  I look s bit thinner than I Actually am. But my motivation is renewed!  153 days left until I rock a suit for my best friends wedding.  I'm a groomsmaid! I'm stay at about 209 these days and want to lose add much as I can by June 15th. So I created a visual,  a widget on my phone that counts down the days.  153 days to be on the ball!  It helps to have an end in sight.  A Day that I call the end,  even though it won't be. It's just a tool to keep me true to the goal. I hope I stick with it!