I remember lasting 15 mins last year.

I remember the first one hour elliptical was a huge thing.

Now I regularly clock an hour.

I'm feeling strong.

Thank you freidman.

raw food.

im back on like 78% raw food.

ive fallen off the healthy eating wagon a couple times.

but im doing well.

and i cant seem to shake any of the weight.

its irritating but im not giving up.

i realized that i never get below 195 and im TIRED OF IT. i want to keep it up and feel proud of myself.

on a slightly related way,

pluots are the shit.

seriously.

more to come when im not hungover :]

dude

back to raw.

smoothies for the win.

target for a seperate win with a blender for 13$.

poor.

but working through it.

life is a series of curveballs.

but id rather play extra innings than the game to be over.

i binged today because i missed my kid.

binged on ricecakes, kielbasa and cheese bites. yep.

feel sick.

damn it all :]

new city...

and im going to lose this weight.

had milk and jamba for breakfast and am nomming on some grapes as a snack :]

gotta lose this weight for my new life!

ugh

sometimes i know better.

other times i know better and dont pay attention.

i know WHAT it takes to be thinner and healthier.

but do i do it? no. im SO lame.

and im fed up with myself. if it were any other person repeatedly breaking promises to me and letting me down would i keep up with them...NO. so why let myself do it?

im better than that.

chubby. but alive :]

moving today out of Js house and into my own place. scary :(

praying and trusting.