J has lost 4 lbs!

excellent for him! i dont weigh in. im not going to until the end me thinks. thats a lie we know i have no willpower for the number palate we call a scale.

but im going to hold out for awhile to avoid being disheartened.

im excited for him and incredibnly proud. he is doing great!

foooooods

subway 6 inch for lunch and then the rest a couple hours later, banana in the morning, lots of coffee, a glass of champagne and then dinner of fish tacos. heyoh!

i can hardly "weight" to see my new svelte figure.

i be sexy!

vacation

you know what that means.

the recent epiphany of acceptance still holds true. am i sad that i gave in to ice cream today, yesterday and pizza on this trip? yes. only because i have a goal and its gonna get there later and later with each passing meal that i cheat on.

but im still me.

a mother of one, a lover of one, a daughter and a sister.

im me. im beautiful even while gorging on pizza.

also...i think my new ice cream alternative will be bananas with either caramel or chocolate syrup, it tastes like ice cream, i know im eating calories and im not eating a full bowl of ice cream. itd be about 300 calories depending on amount of syrup and banana size, and still cheating but healthier :]

also gonna try and think of ways to coupon and get healthyish things. i can do this business.

i ate like 10 fajitas.

sigh. sometimes i have no self control.

and no it wasnt ten. but it was a LOT. shoooot.

luckily tomorrow is a new day. so i dont care much :]

damn cereal.

not much else to eat...except for oatmeal. but i needed a break from oatmeal :]

but now to find a cheap slow cooker recipe :]

thinking about using this site for it.

http://www.thesimpledollar.com/2009/01/30/the-frugal-magic-of-the-five-ingredient-crock-pot-meal/

also...huluplus has like the old seasons of the biggest loser...HEYOH!

Yesterday...

I ended the day with 3 tortillas with egg whites and a little cheese and some pea soup.

Today...started off with apples and oatmeal with just a little syrup and brown sugar. Quaker oats ftw! Probably gonna do bananas and peanut butter for a snack and some strawberries with splenda for a second snack and some more oatmeal later before I finish the night off with something for dinner I haven't yet decided. :)

Oh and I'm still broke...but picked up a tube of quaker oatmeal for 3 bucks strawberries for 4$, apples for 1$ a lb and some quick things for the bebe. As well as bananas for .59c a lb. :)

I spent 21$ this morning and got enough oatmeal to last me a week as well as enough fruit for healthy snacks to last me 3 days or so. I can do this. Just takes some planning. :)

Back on up

Back at 217 ish.

So going back to mostly raw depending on availability.

Yesterday had all fruits and veggies with some peanut butter on some as a snack.

Today fruit for breakfast and oatmeal for lunch.

Upping my water and just having fun with it. So far this is proven to be a struggle for me which will no doubt be a sweet success story. But I still maintain I love myself...
Lol I'm too broke to buy new clothes!additionally there is much more serious matters to focus on than weight and calories. Its a priority but never again will I let it consume me. I'm grateful for the insight this journey has provided that I may love me for who I am and know I deserve utter happiness.

The person has been repaired, the focus has been redirected and I live for me and my son...not for my weight.