Pros and cons

Today.

Successees:
I breastfed :)
I upped my water intake by like 200%

Hinderances:
I ate cake.
:)

(I don't regret it.)

:) no cake tomorrow. Or the days after. But it was brought to me, and I ate some. No excuses...I just did it and I own it.
I'm gonnna be a good role model for my perfect little girl and her amazing brother.

The better way...

You'll wanna cheat.

Just don't cheat with a pint of ice cream.

Ben and jerrys, starbucks and a few others have "serving size" cups which run around 200 calories. Not a low calorie snack necessarily...but its a lot better than mindless snacking from a pint when suddenly...you see the bottom of the container! You won't feel full, fatty or guilty :)

Just a thought. :)

10 days post partum

This is a rough day. I don't feel very positive. I've been eating well, and often to keep up with milk supply. The swelling in my feet and legs has gone down but I still feel icky.
My end weight was 288. *gulp*
I know its a work in progress, but I feel so down today. Inside influences have me feeling blue. Benefit? I've got a beautiful 3 year old and a beautiful newborn girl.

Ill start exercise in 5 weeks. But the calories will stay up a little bit to allow for breastmilk. :)

Sigh. Ill write more later. Tonight I'm reflecting on my family, my babies. I don't need no negativity clouding such a pretty thing.

sigh....starting off worse than before.

the damage is done, and once this baby comes i am going to be on my own with the weight loss.

im heavier than when i delivered jude, and as the numbers creep up i get a little sad. Im VERY happy for the reason WHY I am heavy. Im excited to meet my daughter. but the fat girl in me feels defeated. I want to be better! I want to be thinner! Ive gained all the weight back and then some since last January!

but you know what? I CAN GET YOU OFF, FAT!

YOU ARE NO MATCH FOR SOMEONE WHO KNOWS THEY CAN DO IT!

so there.

pfffft.