Part of me hates this blog because I have to read about my recent or past failures, or how good i was in the PAST. but another part loves it for the samereasons.
A friend of mine got back on the clean eating and exercise train and lost 2.27% of his body weight, 5 lbs, in his first week back. I heard this and was filled with complete happiness! and then I recalled the many times I myself had large losses in a week, and became sad.
in the past couple months I have gone from 206 lbs at my lowest to 232lbs atmy highest. It depends on the day and some is water, but I KNOW that most is just plain ole fat.
I am going to be in that wedding in 2 weeks with no chance at being under 206. the following week I go on vacation and will be hitting many many beaches along the west coast of the united states. I will still be wearing a shirt to cover my body and shorts to cover my thighs.
I know that I was trying, for a lot of the time,andgot discouraged when i saw NO weight loss for 2 months. but WHY stop eating HEALTHY? why start putting CRAP into my body again? I got defeated, and lazy.
It is not a good reason, but ive been incredibly pressed and stretched in my life. my younger sister and my mother in law are living with us. Im in school full time. with two kids. I had to stop my internship because I didnt have enough time to complete it. my husband started a new job putting him away from the house for 12 hours a day. the housework was piling, I am solely responsible for my younger sister as well as my children. I am teaching my 4 year old at home (he is an advanced little one and can read and write and loves to learn) and my 15 month old is a very very wily and feisty little one who climbs and runs and jumps and is always in some sort of mischief and often trying to be in dangerous situations. I watch a third little one 2 days a week as well annnnd we got a new puppy which is MUCH harder than it sounds!
it is ROUGH sometimes to handle it all with grace and ease. but my BODY STILL DESERVES GOOD FOODS!
My baby girl just woke up andI cant finish, but i am going to remember the failures. I am not short on motivation and reason, after all I have 2 beautiful reasons to be healthy that call me mama and I cant short myself on even a single day with them if i can help it!
back soon friends.
