an updateish thingyy

sooooo i wish i could say a LOT has changed and ive suddenly been dropping weight like flies (odd thing to say, this i know and subsequently dont care:] )but NO.

i can say i have lost a little, and damn straight too! today is monday June 25th. as of tomorrow i will have been sick for 2 weeks. one week with a flu, the next with a head cold. lots of chicken soup lies in my recent past, and lots of expulsion of nutrients. lots of clear liquids and lots of fruits and veggies when i could eat.

i lost about 4.5lbs in the last 4 weeks ish. im trying to tell myself to not get too excited because some of that s water weight, but some is me. i HAVE made smart choices (i now start my day with a fruit smoothie, and we're talking fruit. iwill start adding some nonfat yogurt to get some calcium and probiotics in there, but its very fresh and very filling! this said, if i am hungry, i eat a little after). until i got sick i was walking/jogging (okay who am i kidding it was VERY little jogging and MOSTLY walking) about 5/6 days a week.

I carry my 15 lb baby everywhere, and wear her when i can. Ive got 3 new pairs of shoes over the last 4months aimed at optimal fitness impact.

i still technically breastfeed exclusively, even if that excusivity comes by way of my medela.but with an output of 35-50oz a day depending, id say it should still count dammit.

i make exercise wherever i go. i dont want it to get boring, so if i dont wanna walk my nightly walk...damn it im walkign around walmart for an hour. SOMETHING.


MOVE may MOVE.

so as it stands as of last wednesday, i weighed myself (right after the flu as the head cold started) at 257.something. which is 31 lbs lost since the day i had my girl. the original plan was 88lbs in 44 weeks. i figured it would be reasonable. im way behind this by about 13ish lbs, right now. so instead lets go by the old adage "it takes 40 weeks to put it on, give it forty weeks to come off". this should mean that in 40 weeks i should lose 60 lbs. so 4.5 months in im halfway to my smaller goal.

i DO get discouraged. but i still hold my ability to accept and embrace the challenge. kind of. :) i want to see results, i understand that some things i do wont get me there, or they will set me back (like when my throat hurt so bad my dinner was a pint of ben and jerrys pb and banana frozen yogurt....in record time mind you). but i accept these things. its not over til its over, and every decision i make is just part of it. that pint set me back 3 days in my mind. i dont beat myself up. i really only beat myself up when i am being good and nothing happens....but if i had the choice, id rather beat up someone else. you feel me?

ill post pictures later. when im in a better mood. although...its about time to pump, and the ladies look great! when its time to pump, my waist always looks smaller :)

be real, accept your reality, and change it if you dont like it. its up to you.
until next time.